"its just my parents are also super opposed to everything even though both of them have dealt with depression themselves and my dad has even been hospitalized. so even if i did want to go i wouldnt know how to bring it up because my parents are like youre fine youre happy you have nothing to be depressed about blaah. :/ im just really frustrated and i feel alone and this is so petty so im sorry for putting this on you" With love, Anonymous.
It’s absolutely not petty. I’m sorry you feel like you aren’t getting the support you need. Do you think you could talk to a therapist or school counselor because sometimes parents are able to understand better when it’s coming from another adult or a professional. It can be hard for parents to accept that you need something like this because they would love for you to not have to suffer at all, but it’s important for you to get the help you need to be happy.
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Friday May 24th
"so my depression has gotten so so awful lately. i saw my therapist today for the first time since august, and it made me realize how truly awful i am (mental-state wise) and id like to check into a hospital or something for a week maybe. just for a break or something. but the thing is my best friend checked into one a few days ago and now i feel really stupid because i dont want him to feel like im taking away attention and i wouldnt tell anyone, but i dont know. i just feel so conflicted" With love, Anonymous.
When you are getting treatment or help, the focus has to be on getting yourself better. Anything going on with anyone else does not matter. You have to make the choices that are going to promote your health. Try to push anything going on with anyone else on your mind and focus on the core of your being. If you are feeling like you need that form of help, listen to your feelings. There are always going to be reasons you can find not to get the help you need, but you have to look past these obstructions. No one else needs to enter the conversation or decision making process. Get what you need to be healthy, love!
"hello! can i ask for some kinda petty and lame advice? i think im just being silly but i dont know :p" With love, Anonymous.
Sure thing! I’m sure it’s not silly.
"hey,i'm getting seeing a phycologist but the thing is i don't want help anymore,does this make me a bad person? i feel i don't deserve it so why should i get help,there's nothing even wrong with me,everyone has a reason to why they're feeling down and me i just have a disabled brother and sister so why should that effect me so much,why should that make me make myself throw up,i don't want help anymore but then i do and i'm so confused :(" With love, Anonymous.
Hey hon. It sounds like you’re struggling with a lot right now. It’s really normal to feel conflicted about getting treatment. An eating disorder will tell you that you aren’t sick, don’t deserve help, don’t have it that bad, etc. These are distortions that keep you sick. Anyone with an eating disorder has had these feelings. An eating disorder will try to hold on tightest when you are getting treatment and getting better because it is threatened. Right now is the time to stick with things, even if you aren’t convinced that you want it. Keep pushing through and you can get to a place where you can see all of these things through clear eyes. Your suffering is important. You don’t need to compare it to anyone else’s.
Everyone has times that they feel down, but feeling down is very different from having a mental illness. The wonderful thing about it is that your mental illness can be treated. You can’t go around comparing your suffering to others because you have what you have, and it’s your job to make the most of it. Treatment is how you make the most of it and how you make sure you are the best person you can be for yourself and your family.
"WOW, I just lost a bunch of weight using the OFFICIAL TUMBLR DIET!! Are u using it as well?" With love, Anonymous.
NOPE!
I am using my own hunger cues and intuitive eating to maintain my healthy, higher weight!
Huzzah!
The baleful call of the recent graduate…Oh.My.God. What.Is.Going.On How.Did.I.Get.Here? What.Am.I.Doing.With.My.Life? AAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
I had to miss out on meeting friends for lunch and to say goodbye for the last time before everyone leaves after graduation because I have a nutritionist appointment. I’m in one of those moods where I really despise having to do treatment things. I got in trouble in nutrition a few weeks ago for not wanting to open up and I’m afraid today is going to be another bitchy day.
I’m graduating today! It’s been rough at times but I made it through. I might not be getting the honors other people are getting, but I’m alive and proud.
heyouvaleria:
PARTY HARD
Senior week!!!!
(via kissmyassanorexia)
"You go Jules, four for you Jules! But for realsies so badass going to a pool party and having ice cream <3 hope I can get there one day! Much love" With love, Anonymous.
:D you’re the best
And then I also ate ice cream in my bikini because I refuse to live a limited life.
Okay, meltdown over. Man, I’m getting quick at recovering from these.
I have decided to go to the pool party after all even though my gastroparisis is back and I’ve gained.
I actually think that I look kind of acceptable. I don’t look “anorexic” anymore by a longshot but maybe I can still look okay? Photos under the read more.
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