Anatomy of Recovery


Pro-Recovery
I'm Jules, a 22 year old recent college graduate. I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa when I was 14. I'm 100% committed to recovery because I know how amazing it can be. This blog is about my journey and any help and inspiration I can offer others on their own journeys.
I tag all my personal pics "julespic" so that you can block the tag if you find them triggering. I also tag all photos of food with the "food" tag in case they are triggering to you.

Email Me at anatomy.of.recovery@gmail.com

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"Is it normal to feel alone at times? during recovery i mean. Not all the time only sometimes but it creeps up on me and sometimes its like i'm drowning. I need help. Please" With love, Anonymous.

It’s normal to feel alone sometimes but it sounds like what you’re going through right now is very painful, and you certainly don’t need to be suffering like this.  Can you let someone know that you’re feeling this way, like your therapist?  It can be very lonely to be going through things alone.  Treating these kind of feelings is an integral part of recovery, just as much as eating is.  It sounds like more than just feeling alone is going on here, and depression can be a serious part of eating disorders.  

Maybe you can come up with a short list of 5 people you can call, text, or email when you’re feeling alone.  You can let them know that you might reach out to them and let them know if you want to be distracted or if you want to talk about what you’re feeling.  Sometimes it can be really hard to reach out.  Once, when I was feeling really alone, I just posted a status on facebook asking folks to share a youtube video that always makes them smile.  Having a routine that involves self-care and seeing people can also help keep the dark feelings from creeping up on you.  

Sending love <3

I always end up posting the disordered thoughts that are currently bugging me at like 3 AM and then turning the posts to private before people see them and think poorly of me or are triggered.  I feel like this sucks.

Currently freaking the fuck out because I have looked at my BostonChildren’s online portal that tells you all the reports, labs, and measurements from all your visits and mine all say “Nutritional Deficiency (active), Anxiety (active), Connective tissue disorder (Active)” and not Anorexia Nervosa, even though I guess I don’t currently fit the criteria but that’s because I’m in recovery, not because I don’t have anorexia.  I’m not sure why this fucking matters to me but it really quite does.  Also, the measure my height slightly differently every time and then make my BMI based off of my height differently every time!

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"Can you provide some advice on how to be okay with wearing summer clothes now that the weather is changing? I have been under an immense amount of stress thinking about how I cant hide in my baggy clothes over the summer because it will be too warm." With love, Anonymous.

I wouldn’t want to advocate you hiding under clothing, but I think it’s fine to find summer clothing that you’re more comfortable in.  Wear things that allow you to experience the joys of summer without being constantly thinking about your body.  You can try babydoll dresses, flowy lace tops, maxi skirts and dresses, and floaty summer skirts.  Everyone is different, but I found that I was really uncomfortable in shorts and tight dresses but quite comfortable in dresses that were fitted in the chest and then flared out or in flowy boho styles.  I can post some ideas if you’d like— just send another ask and I’ll put up some links?  Find some things that you actually like and think are pretty, too.

It’s going to take some time for you to get used to wearing less clothing in general.  You may find that comfort will increase with time.  To some degree, everyone else is also feeling the same way.  Remember that people are going to be more concerned with their own bodies than they are with yours.  Hope this helps!

"gorgeous" With love, Anonymous.

Thank you!!!!  ^.^

DO NOT BE ALARMED— I HAVE A NEW ICON!

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"HI Odd question here, can anorexia recovers have a flat tummy? I am exercising (It has been approved) but i wonder how long it may take to see a difference in my tummy, i am doing exercise that focuses on that are. Any advice would be great" With love, Anonymous.

Is this the same person who keeps asking me questions about tummy flatness, bloating, and exercise?  There’s no reason that someone who has recovered can’t have a flat tummy, if that’s how their body naturally acts.  Anorexia won’t permanently alter what your body type is, although weight redistribution can take up to a year.  Some people will never have a flat tummy at a healthy weight, others will.  Pretty much no one has a flat tummy 100% of the time because there’s food and organs in there.  It is meant to expand in response to food.  It’s impossible to spot-reduce fat, but if your core muscles are wasted away from anorexia, it may end up looking different over time.  Again, I don’t really give advice about exercise and body toning aside from using yoga as a wellness tool.

I’m sorry if this response comes across as rude; I certainly don’t intend it that way.  I understand really wanting your stomach to be flat, and that might happen, but I think that focusing to this extent on altering your body could get in the way of some of the mental work of recovery.  Best wishes <3

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DO NOT BE ALARMED— I HAVE A NEW ICON!

this was the old one…

Same url, same me, different picture!

Would people be super confused if I changed my icon?

I’ve had it literally since I joined tumblr several years ago but I kind of want to change it… Would it be too confusing?

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Delicious lunch today!! Cumin roasted sweet potato cubes, zucchini, and red pepper strips over sautéed spinach with half an avocado, topped with fresh cracked pepper and a sprinkle of nutritional yeast! Also had a big, refreshing mango-cucumber green juice on the side 💚 #meals

Food ideas for grocery shopping Monday!

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Delicious lunch today!! Cumin roasted sweet potato cubes, zucchini, and red pepper strips over sautéed spinach with half an avocado, topped with fresh cracked pepper and a sprinkle of nutritional yeast! Also had a big, refreshing mango-cucumber green juice on the side 💚 #meals

Food ideas for grocery shopping Monday!

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Anon- I’ve gotten your messages and I’m certainly going to reply.  I’ve just taken my sleepy meds and will respond in the morning when I have less of a fluffy bunny for a brain!

"[ed tw!] so I've been doing pretty well lately but the other day my significant other told me that they've essentially been restricting for a while now "accidentally-on-purpose" and I'm really worried, but they don't think it's a problem. I've been dealing with ed stuff for like 5 years, and I know there's no such thing as not a problem. But it's also kind of triggering for me, especially since they're smaller than me. And I feel bad and very conflicted and I just wanted to tell someone." With love, Anonymous.

Oh, hon.  That sounds like a really difficult and painful situation to be in, although I’m really glad to hear that you’ve been doing well lately.  It sounds like you just wanted to get that off of your chest, so I won’t say too much but please let me know if you want to talk about it or think of ways to handle your feelings or the situation.  I’m wishing the best for both of you and thank you for sharing your feelings here <3

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I always manage to gain weight back just in time for summer clothes.  

Holla at not “getting skinny for summer.”  

Just ignore me crying a little.