It’s absolutely not petty. I’m sorry you feel like you aren’t getting the support you need. Do you think you could talk to a therapist or school counselor because sometimes parents are able to understand better when it’s coming from another adult or a professional. It can be hard for parents to accept that you need something like this because they would love for you to not have to suffer at all, but it’s important for you to get the help you need to be happy.
TRIGGER WARNING.. PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE TRIGGERED BY NUMBERS! My friend is bragging about losing x a day. Is this two much weight? I am worried about her.
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When you are getting treatment or help, the focus has to be on getting yourself better. Anything going on with anyone else does not matter. You have to make the choices that are going to promote your health. Try to push anything going on with anyone else on your mind and focus on the core of your being. If you are feeling like you need that form of help, listen to your feelings. There are always going to be reasons you can find not to get the help you need, but you have to look past these obstructions. No one else needs to enter the conversation or decision making process. Get what you need to be healthy, love!
Sure thing! I’m sure it’s not silly.
Hey hon. It sounds like you’re struggling with a lot right now. It’s really normal to feel conflicted about getting treatment. An eating disorder will tell you that you aren’t sick, don’t deserve help, don’t have it that bad, etc. These are distortions that keep you sick. Anyone with an eating disorder has had these feelings. An eating disorder will try to hold on tightest when you are getting treatment and getting better because it is threatened. Right now is the time to stick with things, even if you aren’t convinced that you want it. Keep pushing through and you can get to a place where you can see all of these things through clear eyes. Your suffering is important. You don’t need to compare it to anyone else’s.
Everyone has times that they feel down, but feeling down is very different from having a mental illness. The wonderful thing about it is that your mental illness can be treated. You can’t go around comparing your suffering to others because you have what you have, and it’s your job to make the most of it. Treatment is how you make the most of it and how you make sure you are the best person you can be for yourself and your family.
I am using my own hunger cues and intuitive eating to maintain my healthy, higher weight!
Oh.My.God. What.Is.Going.On How.Did.I.Get.Here? What.Am.I.Doing.With.My.Life? AAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
I had to miss out on meeting friends for lunch and to say goodbye for the last time before everyone leaves after graduation because I have a nutritionist appointment. I’m in one of those moods where I really despise having to do treatment things. I got in trouble in nutrition a few weeks ago for not wanting to open up and I’m afraid today is going to be another bitchy day.
I’m graduating today! It’s been rough at times but I made it through. I might not be getting the honors other people are getting, but I’m alive and proud.
:D you’re the best
I have decided to go to the pool party after all even though my gastroparisis is back and I’ve gained.
I actually think that I look kind of acceptable. I don’t look “anorexic” anymore by a longshot but maybe I can still look okay? Photos under the read more.