Anatomy of Recovery


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I'm Jules, a 22 year old recent college graduate. I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa when I was 14. I'm 100% committed to recovery because I know how amazing it can be. This blog is about my journey and any help and inspiration I can offer others on their own journeys.
I tag all my personal pics "julespic" so that you can block the tag if you find them triggering. I also tag all photos of food with the "food" tag in case they are triggering to you.

Email Me at anatomy.of.recovery@gmail.com

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 The nitrogen in our DNA, the calcium in our teeth, the iron in our blood, the carbon in our apple pies were made in the interiors of collapsing stars. We are made of starstuff.”
-Carl Sagan, Cosmos
The amino acid sequence on my arm is: Ile-Ale-Met-Ser-Thr-Ala-Arg-Ser-Thr-Sec-Phe-Phe, “I AM STARSTUFF”
Stay connected :)

fuckyeahmathandsciencetattoos:

 The nitrogen in our DNA, the calcium in our teeth, the iron in our blood, the carbon in our apple pies were made in the interiors of collapsing stars. We are made of starstuff.”

-Carl Sagan, Cosmos

The amino acid sequence on my arm is: Ile-Ale-Met-Ser-Thr-Ala-Arg-Ser-Thr-Sec-Phe-Phe, “I AM STARSTUFF”

Stay connected :)


You cannot solve a problem with the same mind that created it..

You cannot solve a problem with the same mind that created it..

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"If someone had thought processes consistent with an eating disorder but did not act on that thinking, would it still be considered an ed?" With love, Anonymous.

No, the criteria for diagnosing eating disorders always includes a behavioral component.  However, the individual could be diagnosed with another mental illness.  For example, an individual with intrusive and obsessive thoughts about food and eating might be diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder, since OCD can be characterized by obsessions, compulsions, or both.  It can be primarily obsessional in some cases and people may have intrusive thoughts that are very upsetting.  Someone could also have body dysmorphic disorder and have a strong anxiety or preoccupation about a perceived defect or defects in their body.  In any case, whether or not someone fits the criteria for having an eating disorder, being tormented by negative obsessive thoughts is something to take seriously and seek treatment for.  You don’t need an eating disorder diagnosis in order to feel better.  Take your thoughts seriously because you could also be in a higher risk position for developing an eating disorder.  Hope this helps!

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Ootd, one of my new ModCloth Stylish Surprise dresses with a blazer from Anthropologie and flats from JCrew.

I just had dinner with my ex.  I’m not sure how I feel.  I think I feel detached.  We wandered through the asian grocery store after dinner and he bought me a gigantic bag of like 50 fortune cookies just because I thought it was funny and I wanted to just keep opening fortunes until I got everything I needed.

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Greg Rivera » Collector Of Galaxies

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My ModCloth stylish surprise has arrived!  I got four dresses, which all fit, and a tank top that isn’t really my style but actually looks cuter on and is great for pj’s/workouts.  I was really, really hoping for dresses, so I’m quite pleased with what I received.  They’re not necessarily things I’d have picked on my own, but I like that in a way.

It only cost me $39 including shipping because I had a referral discount from someone, so if you want my referral code it’s here!

"Hi there hope you're ok :) I am currently in recovery, following a meal plan and gaining weight. I was wondering, how long does it take for the weight on the stomach to distribute? I already have weight in my arms, legs, face and starting to get hips but my doctor says it is through lack of tone that my tummy is the way it is. Any advice would be great. Thanks." With love, Anonymous.

 Some people who have been severely malnourished experience muscle wasting, which includes the muscles of the abdomen.  When people refeed after this muscle wasting, sometimes they initially experience some roundness in the stomach area from bloating and from lack of structure in the abdominal wall.  The body has had to cannibalize muscle tissue since it hasn’t been receiving proper nutrition.  Neither of these things is permanent and they also have little to do with body fat.  Eating sufficiently along with doing activities of daily living like sitting up and walking around should restore these muscles to perfectly fine working order, although some people eventually (with medical approval) strengthen their core through things like yoga to improve general health and reduce things like lingering pain.

It is true that if you carried some weight in your tummy before your restriction that you will carry some there once you are weight-redistributed.  Generally people find that their body eventually settles back to a similar general shape to what it was before their ED, although this is more complicated for those who got sick and weight restored during their teen/early 20’s when body fat naturally changes location.  Spot reduction of fat doesn’t work, so this will end up having little to do with your abdominal muscles, although muscle tone can change the appearance in general, as explained above.  

Overall, weight redistribution can take about a year, sometimes longer, and it often continues in an accelerated but totally normal way if someone is still in their pubescent and recently post-pubescent years.  It’s very normal to be having this experience right now.  Just my two cents on what might be going on.  <3

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My eating disorder causes me to do embarrassing things

I know that I’m not allowed to have a scale, so I try not to have one, but occasionally I freak out.  Then I will go at whatever hour and in whatever context to CVS and buy a scale with the intention of bringing it back.  I convince myself that it’s not really owning a scale… it’s just borrowing it.  Then I have to return it.  Once I bought a scale at 1 am and returned it at 3 am to the same cashier at the same CVS.  It’s embarrassing to do.  So, I now have a temporary scale that I need to return to my local CVS… again… and I also feel guilty because they probably can’t resell it and they always take the return.  I am 23 years old and shouldn’t be doing this.  Don’t worry, I always do return it.  I feel quite silly.  I guess if you can’t laugh at yourself…