I am feeling pretty great today!
The CEO of my company sent us Thanksgiving letters with Trader Joes gift cards and a few dark chocolate peanut butter cups. I celebrated Hanukkah all by myself for the first time, and it felt nice to have that ritual in my life. I also bought myself some slippers (self-present) and they are the best thing ever.
"Is it normal to still binge and have food on my mind 24/7 even after a few months into recovery?" With love, Anonymous.
Congratulations on the work you’ve done to get here! If you’re still binging and having food on your mind all the time, it might be a sign that something needs to change. If you’re recovering from a disorder where you experienced binging and purging, like bulimia, it might be that you’ve been able to stop the purging behaviour but still need more treatment to also deal with the bingeing. Binging is a serious behavior for many people to overcome. For people recovering from restrictive eating disorders who have been undernourished and/or underweight, the urge to binge and obsession with food can be biological responses to a starvation state. A few months into recovery, these things should be resolving but it might take more time. If they’re not, it might be a sign that your intake or weight are too low, or that you need to do some psychological work to get your mind to leave that place. Restrictive eating disorders also consist of coping mechanisms involving food, so sometimes new coping mechanisms relating to food can also emerge and need to be handled. Overall, if you’re still experiencing these things, it’s important to bring them up with whoever is treating you. Obsession with food and binging are still signs of disordered eating, even if other parts or previous parts of your disorder are now under control.
I have been extremely anxious since my car accident on Monday, especially when I’m being driven anywhere. I’m not even sure I’ll be able to drive my car to the shop after it gets appraised.
I had a number of uncontrollable panic attacks when I was in the ER and my body feels so keyed up with anxiety all the time right now.
Meditation, Nayyirah Waheed (via vyperous
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"i love your thanksgiving outfit! can you say where each piece is from?" With love, Anonymous.
Thanks! The boots are from Target, fleece lined tights from Urban Outfitters, the dress is BCBGMaxAzria and I got it at Goodwill, the blazer is by Gap and I got that at the thrift store too. :)
I’m meeting the boyfriend’s extended family today at thanksgiving, so I’m very overwhelmed. I’m going to try not to overthink it and go with the flow. Thanksgiving is such a huge stressor but I really want this to go well.
I love this show so much
This is literally my favorite tumblr post
Adventure time has got to be the best show for kids ever to grace this planet. I know I learn from this shit
A little AT to wash down all the bullshit tonight. <3
(Source: awesome-hyperchipmunk-world, via selfimmolate)
"What genetic disorder do you have?" With love, Anonymous.
I have Ehlers Danlos syndrome, which is a genetic disorder that affects the connective tissues of the body. Some of the symptoms/manifestations:
- Spontaneous joint subluxations and dislocations
- Joint hypermobility
- Tissue fragility- skin that rips and doesn’t heal, fragility of organs with ocasional rupture of organs, blood vessels that may tear or bleed easily.
- Dysautonomia and POTS- leads to my tachycardia and blood pressure problems
- Smooth, velvety skin that can be very stretchy
- Easy Bruising
- Mitral valve prolapse
- Aortic root dilation
- Marfanoid habitus- a body type similar to those with Marfan Syndrome, which is a related disorder. Long limbs and arachnodactyly
- Subcutaneous spheroids: small, cyst-like, hard shot-like nodules, freely moveable in the subcutis over the bony prominences of the legs and arms.
- Molluscoid pseudotumors: fleshy, heaped-up lesions associated with scars over pressure points such as the elbows and knees
- Chronic pain
- Scoliosis and other spinal deformities
- Muscle fatigue
- GI problems like chronic diarrhea and gastroparesis
They were worried that the forward and backward wrenching motion of the car accident could have caused my aorta to tear.
I’m doing well though! Things like this just make ER visits more complicated.
"I hope the ct scan is fine and you don't find the dye too uncomfortable" With love, Anonymous.
Thanks hon! I got the results back and I have no fractures, and my aorta is good— no tears. The dye was really funny. I didn’t feel it go in so much, but they certainly weren’t kidding about it making you feel like you’d wet your pants, and that you were warm all over. It only lasted like a minute though! Thanks for your kind thoughts <3
Still in the ER because my genetic disorder has them worried about a torn aorta. Getting a ct scan with injected contrast. My friend knew exactly the perfect comfort book to bring without me even asking!
Car got rear-ended by a dump truck on the way to my psych appointment this morning. On my way to the ER now.