It’s so interesting that so many other people have had this experience also! For me, anxiety meds like klonopin did nothing but propranolol, which is a beta blocker that I take for my heart, seems to make a huge improvement in how often it happens.
People mainly think I’m cold and try to give me their jackets -_-
Does anyone else with anxiety get physically shivery/shaky when they have intense conversations, even if they don’t feel upset or anxious?
I get these pretty noticeable tremors, even if it’s an intense conversation that I’m enjoying or don’t feel anxious about. Anyone else experience this? It seems like a physical reaction to intense social interaction?
Today was new nutritionist day!
She doesn’t do exchange based plans… So that was unexpected because everyone I have ever seen works that way. I guess it makes more sense with my leaning towards intuitive eating. I’m not sure that I like her but I’ll give it a few sessions. I’m worried that she doesn’t like me because I have her a bit of a look when she asked me “why I believed I needed nutritional counseling.”
Light tw under the read more, no numbers.
I didn’t have to prove literally that I was sick for insurance reasons this time because I have a diagnosis and referral stuff that make it covered. They just need a diagnostic code for the insurance documents and that can come from them or another professional like a doctor or psychiatrist. The referral process will differ depending on insurance companies. I could still get covered to see a nutritionist while maintaining a healthy weight and eating normally if it was deemed medically or psychologically necessary. My doctors would give me that kind of support to seek treatment no matter what.
I mean that I had the eating disorder thought that I had to be “sick enough” for her to think I was suffering or “sick enough” that there was a valid reason for me to be needing treatment. All these things are not rational. I didn’t have to let my behaviors increase in order to go, but my ED did a pretty good job of convincing me otherwise. I felt like she would think negative things about me if I was “too healthy”. Man eating disorders suck.
I am meeting my new nutritionist tomorrow at Boston Children’s after about 4 months of no regular nutrition support due to insurance problems.
Over the past few weeks I fell into the trap of needing to prove I was sick for the appointment. I’m pretty nervous. Bad nutritionists can be unbelievable triggering. I don’t really know what to expect in terms of her approach, whether she will want me to do a meal plan, what she will think of my current weight, and what she will set as a goal weight.
I have had to do a lot of adulting in the past few days and it is exhausting. I feel no good at anything. Living on my own is hard.
What I’m currently digging hardcore.
I need to get my swirling vortex of emotions under control so I stop myself before I ruin every relationship in my life. I need help. And self control.
Lusting after this Free People dress… why must you be so expensive?!?
troubledwithacapitolt said:You’re lovely, keep working hard! I know you don’t like to post it but I love seeing your face
Thanks lovely! I wish I could leave up face photos without compromising my anonymity. Ah, well. <3
I finally made enough money to get the first check to donate to the NEDA from my Cafe Press shop!! I’m so excited!
Thank you to everyone who has made a purchase. <3
Sometimes I wish that it was okay to be perfectly honest about one’s struggles on here without triggering people/losing followers/not being a positive blog. I know that posting as a read-more or TW doesn’t work for people browsing on their phones.