The period from Halloween until after Christmas is always the most turbulent for me in my recovery. Let’s make it a good year.
My sleep report for last night
My psychiatrist told me that getting good quality sleep was going to be very important for managing my mood, and that my lamictal can interfere with my sleeping. I just downloaded the Sleep Cycle app for my iPhone, which monitors your movements during sleep to determine your cycles into deep sleep and the overall quality of sleep that you’re getting.
It will develop graphs over time, and you can add categories like “did yoga before bed” or “took a melatonin supplement” to the Sleep Notes category and use a graph to compare the sleep you get with and without those conditions. You can also chart your mood when you wake up.
It will also keep track over time of how much sleep you’re getting per night, and seeing changes in your sleep pattern can be a cue that you might be cycling into hypomania or depression.
The alarm function is pretty cool too. You give it a range of time in which it can wake you up— from like 10-30 mins, and it will wake you up at the most gentle part of your sleep cycle at some point during that period.
weirdenlightenment said: Yikes people making comments on your body is not cool. Anon I know you mean well but you can’t see dictate her health at all just by seeing a picture of her body.
Yeah, and I think that people sometimes get attention or concern towards how they are doing given how their bodies look, and that reinforces the idea that people will care about you if you look sick. That’s one reason it can be fairly triggering to me. It’s cool to ask how I’m doing no matter how I look! I don’t mean this to be critical of anyone— I just want to explain.
I’m stuck in my apartment being pathetic with a mug of tea because I’ve got a bad cold.
Someone, somewhere, please bring me chocolate cupcakes!!!
tenacioustttabby said: I’d get a reference from another ED specialist or call the insurance for a list of providers. Also ask the ED recovery community in your area!
I already have a nutritionist, but my insurance will no longer cover people who are out of network, so we have called the insurance company for a list of providers, and that’s the list that I was researching. The options are unfortunately very limited and not specific to eating disorders. I can’t see someone out of network, so people who are recommended are not really options. :/
I’m googling all of the nutritionist/dieticians covered by my insurance in my city and they all seem to do weight loss, perinatal nutrition, specialty dieting, “clean eating” or something else that is not at all what I need. I am NOT going to a nutritionist who has little to no experience treating eating disorders. Getting a new nutritionist is always terrifying.
Learning about fats and fat metabolism in biochemistry literally makes my heart feel like it’s going to beat out of my chest and ice cold panic start to rise in my throat. I feel the fats all over me, in all of my cells, moving through my bloodstream.
Sometimes it’s the strangest triggers that surprise me out of the blue.
omg where does your family live in PA?
The family we visit in PA live in Bethlehem.
Let’s avoid that this year.
I would like if my boobs went back to being bigger, but I don’t want to see the number go back up. So that’s a dilemma.